Questions (still, again)

kalamazoo s

Mourning? is
From of killed but spaces why? morning reply no what.
Where? more it when? tomorrow killed has and.
Black another questions wear gun color of sorrow and again just;
Shots unfilled.
Remain will the empty.

ethel lance

I wanted to acknowledge Las Vegas.  The dVerse prompt to ignore grammatical rules seemed a good way to reflect our country’s continued loss of syntax.  But when I went to write something it just seemed I had nothing more to say.  A quick look through the MTM archives counted at least 13 previous posts related to gun violence.  Remember the shootings in Kalamazoo in February 2016?  That’s what the black grid above was done for.

daniel simmons

The two faces above?  Victims of Dylann Roof in 2015.  And below, cops killed while sitting in their patrol car in NYC in 2014.

gun s

But wear.
Gun of again another why? color more empty is sorrow remain.
Of killed killed;
From what and the just black spaces;
Has and will no it questions shots unfilled.
Mourning? reply.
Morning where? when? Tomorrow

no peace s

Every day 88 people die by gun violence in the United States.

To make the poems above, I took what I had written for Kalamazoo, and plugged it into the Dada Poetry Generator.  I did it about 15 times; all the results were pretty accurate as reflections of my jumbled feelings, and I chose two to use in this post.  You can see the original poem here.

never ending

Jimmy Kimmel said everything I want to say and more in his monologue the other night.

in memory of s


Charlotte Bacon, 2/22/2006
Daniel Barden, 9/25/2005
Olivia Engel, 7/18/2006
Josephine Gay, 12/11/2005
Ana M Marquez-Greene, 4/4/2006
Dylan Hockley, 3/8/2006
Madeleine F Hsu, 7/10/2006
Catherine V Hubbard – 6/8/2006
Chase Kowalski, 10/31/2005
Jesse Lewis, 6/30/2006
James Mattioli, 3/22/2006
Grace McDonnell, 11/4/2005
Emilie Parker, 5/12/2006
Jack Pinto, 5/6/2006
Noah Pozner, 11/20/2006
Caroline Previdi, 9/7/2006
Jessica Rekos, 5/10/2006
Avielle Richman, 10/17/2006
Benjamin Wheeler, 9/12/2006
Allison N Wyatt, 7/3/2006
Rachel Davino, 7/17/198
Dawn Hochspring, 6/28/1965
Anne Marie Murphy, 7/25/1960
Lauren Russeau, 6/8/1982
Mary Sherlach, 2/11/1956
Victoria Soto, 11/04/1985


once again we ask:
why?  no answer.  no words left.
a prayer:  have mercy.

All art from previous posts on the occasion of death by gunfire in the news.

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32 responses to “Questions (still, again)”

  1. Sharon Mann says :

    Thank you Kerfe for taking the time to prepare
    the moving acknowledgement of Las Vegas and the other gun violence in our country. When I called my friends in Las Vegas, three of them had friends that were shot and one knew two that had been killed.

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    • memadtwo says :

      Oh Sharon how awful. It’s heartbreaking enough without a direct connection.
      The NY Times compiled a chart of mass shootings (more than 4 people) and how often they occur in the US–it averages more than one a day. And we don’t even hear about most of them, except locally, (maybe).
      Why are we killing each other? And what can we do to stop it?


  2. sarahsouthwest says :

    The woreds themselves feel shattered and traumatised. Very powerful. Very moving,

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  3. 10000hoursleft says :

    When you can start delving into archives and quote stats from your blog on the topic it really highlights the frequency and increasingly common place nature of these atrocities. This was a really important post, Kerfe. Thankyou for reminding us that we have to avoid glazing over at this news and desensistising to it. The dates of birth in that list are heart breaking.

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    • memadtwo says :

      They are. One of my post titles was “Are We Becoming Immune?” I myself had totally forgotten about Kalamazoo, and how many of these random shootings never even make the news? You can’t fix what you won’t face.

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      • 10000hoursleft says :

        Thoughts and prayers won’t bring those innocent people back. The only light out of all this was the very vocal musician (I don’t know his name) who came out saying he had changed his position on the right to bear arms and that friggin 2nd amendment. Hopefully he will continue to speak out and influence the masses that enjoy his music and may be swayed by someone they consider one of their ‘own’. In the meantime, stop thinking and praying people- act! Write to your representatives, march, start an amnesty for guns to be handed in and destroyed. All that can save the next life that you’ll pray for once it is too late. Sorry…I’ve ranted a bit and realise this is the choir I’m preaching to. How many more people will die before something changes?

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        • memadtwo says :

          Yes how many more? Rosanne Cash had an op-ed piece in the times imploring country music to reject the support of the NRA. She is also one of the few voices in the wilderness (and has evidently been receiving threats for speaking out…)

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          • 10000hoursleft says :

            Hopefully, some minds will be changed through this. I think there will be a backlash to all the right wing bs going on at the moment. It will awaken people who would otherwise sit back and leave it to others to be outspoken about wrongs they see. We are living in a time where being quiet is loaded with greater stakes. Or maybe the world has always been this way, I don’t know.

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            • memadtwo says :

              I think there are cycles but this one really frightens me. I keep reading that people are defending guns because it’s part of their identity as Americans…since when? I grew up in the middle of the United States and no one back then thought owning a gun was important to being “American”. I just don’t get it. Killing things is part of your identity? Seriously?


  4. merrildsmith says :

    A powerful and moving post, Kerfe. There are WAY too many of these events, and the fact that you can look back and find them in your blog is sad and troubling.

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  5. paul scribbles says :

    This is not at all dark for me. There is a reflection of a harsh and somewhat discombobulated reality and the taking away of the rules of grammar somehow allow for a stronger sense of the feelings presented here. I think this is amazingly potent.

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  6. Jodi says :

    Oh kerfe! So moving. So respectful. So you!!! I listened to jimmy kimmels monologue the other day and was deeply moved. Thank you for this.

    Liked by 1 person

  7. Lynz Real Cooking says :

    Yes no answer only confusion and sadness

    Liked by 1 person

  8. Sunshine Jansen says :

    Truly, Dada is the only way I can process this degree of senselessness. Thankful for your brave explorations even though they destroy me.

    Liked by 1 person

  9. Björn Rudberg (brudberg) says :

    It makes sense in the way nothing makes sense… there is a limit for thoughts and prayers for me… I note how you cannot even mention it any more… I see a country of trauma just because a clandestine love affair with guns

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  10. Betty Hayes Albright says :

    Thank you for this post. There are no words – just bewilderment and grief. Once again….

    Liked by 1 person

  11. Carol says :

    How many more tears can we cry over these senseless acts of violence? Thank you for your stirring, poignant words and for honoring the victims of these horrible scenarios. 😢

    Liked by 1 person

  12. Jill Kuhn says :

    I agree – too much violence and it seems to be everywhere we look. I think that sometimes we get numb to it but this is what we cannot do – we must speak up – like your art and poetry, Kerfe. ❤️

    Liked by 1 person

    • memadtwo says :

      I think we must Jill. It’s too easy to look away when it doesn’t affect us directly, but we can’t stop trying to find the causes and trying to change the things that are killing us.

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  13. Mish says :

    My question is why do we keep asking why these horrific things happen? To me it is clear. Mental illness that is not detected or treated because society still doesn’t provide proper treatment is one serious source…..and guns. Guns are for killing and should not be something as easy to collect as stamps or rocks. As a Canadian, I have never understood the mindset of American “gun lovers”. It makes no sense to me.

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