Severed Synapse

nuclear brain s

I wear myself inside out. My mask is hidden; my thoughts scriven mysteriously in code.  Sleep returns me to my origins.  I fall, resisting, afraid to let go.

I get up and it’s yesterday, dreary and inexact. Memories come together and instantly fall apart.  I am unbuttoned from the brain down.

All those rituals, the names and places, surrounding me lost and confused. No one can count them.  No one can say when or how they disappeared.

completely unfilled,
outlines stand centered between
never and not now

living vanished s

For Colleen’s Tanka Tuesday, a haibun using synonyms for sad and write. The top artwork is actually part of the stitching for a totally different project.  It’s done on iridescent plastic paper, and the scan makes it look brain-like I think.  The collage above I did awhile ago, but it also seemed to fit.

The mind is a delicate balancing act, always.

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33 responses to “Severed Synapse”

  1. Suzanne says :

    What a vivid depiction of difficult experiences. Your words have a searing honesty and the collage is so poignant.

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  2. boundlessblessingsblog says :

    Vivid imagination, Memad and a beautiful poem.

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  3. Jodi says :

    Wow. Powerful!

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  4. Olga says :

    The mind is definitely a balancing act, especially when its thrown off balance. The collage is so immediate and a bit unnerving. A fish out of water.

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  5. merrildsmith says :

    You’ve described so well in verse that unmoored feeling, the fitful, unfilled or unfulfilled moments gathered hazy-brained, and “unbuttoned from the brain down.” (Wonderful phrase.) It made me feel anxious just reading it!

    That stitching does look like some sort of neuron thing.

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  6. Colleen Chesebro says :

    Unbuttoned from the brain down… What a wonderful image. There is so much inside your words. I can’t stop reading and re-reading. Absolutely fabulous Haibun poem. WOW!! ❤

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  7. robbiesinspiration says :

    This really is a fabulous, Haibun.

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  8. Miriam Hurdle says :

    I read I Never Promise You a Rose Garden and saw the movie. I also worked with a recovered schizophrenia colleague. He was a painter. He painted when he was in the mental hospital. He showed me all the paintings from the beginning of hospitalization to being discharged. It was an eye-opening experience to look inside a mad person’s brain through his paintings and the progression of his brain through the treatment journey.

    I appreciate all the words in your haibun. I could see what it looks like when unbuttoned from the brain down. What a vivid image of a disturbed brain. Well done!

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  9. rivrvlogr says :

    A brain overflowing.

    Like

  10. Wendy Anne Darling says :

    Absolutely stunning imagery, and bravo on the graphics! This haibun needs reading over and over again!

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